Lingering mindset

When you get what you've always longed for, you go head on with no brakes to hold on to it for as long as you possibly can.
What if you dont want it anymore. Then what?

Feeling that feeling again where Im just floating away into this unknown space, not knowing where it's going to lead and if it's ever going to stop. Dont get me wrong, I love every second of it.
Sitting here thinking about messaging random people at 3am, probably not the right thing to do.

Ah! The lights are doing that funny dance again. I wonder if Im losing my head (you're wondering the same, arent you?)

*Brief Smoke break*

I was lying in my bed the other night completely restless listenning to all the sounds in my room. The tick tock of the clock as time passes me by, the hustle of the wind from the open balcony door and the heavy breathing Patricia makes when she's sound asleep. I felt safe.

A few words, emotions and machines could destroy something so beautiful leaving behind a lingering fire and then the unexpected silence. Silence.

...time for me to go home right about *now*