Rebel Soul

may b i shuld OD on freakin pills or sumthin... i duno.. notin seems worth it...
I like this person rite.. n i think only NuNu n Gail knw who... n i cant speak wid him often coz of his schedule.. n my schedule... n all tht other bullshit in between tht i'm not goina mention.. i feel sooo mindfucked rite now... Gosh u know i jus wana b able to b in a relationship wid sumone tht i'm comfortable wid.. u knw... Problem is... i'm afraid i mite end up doing or saying sumting tht'll send him packing away frm me...
Itz hard fer ppl to grasp onto reality as it is definately the leading cause fer stress... Most of the time.. life doesn't seem to make any sense becoz v dun get wht v want... if v eva got wht v wanted... then v wuldnt b able to experience the realties in life or b appreciative of wht we've got...
By having a negative attitude... it only makes things harder n seemingly impossible...
It z also hard to hav a possitive attitude as well coz everyone needs sumone to remind them of wht dey r worth... rite?
Anywayz... itz jus tht i hate the fact tht ppl i luv jus seem to b ripping my insides apart..n oh did i 4get to mention running away frm me?!?
Not tht i make staying wid me any easy... Dammit... controversy in the flesh... how am i goina deal wid it?.. Do u wana knw my escape? FOOD.. thtz why i'm only growing sideways... another depressing factor bout MoI....